I never thought this day would come. This is probably the single most greatest NSV personally for me to date. Not only was this an NSV dream since I had surgery almost 7 years ago, but this was a dream since I was a teenager!
This was a weight loss bucket list item for over 25 years now. Every January, it was the same goal of “I want to wear a 2 piece this summer” and every year, it tapers down, summer comes and goes, and lack of confidence rears it’s ugly head. And year after year, summer is now over so you tell yourself next year will be different. And for the last 7 years, that sentence has been uttered over and over again. . This year was different. . Maybe it was because I had a specific goal this year? Something more tangible to fixate my energy on to push harder? I'm not sure what it was this year but I am turning 40 this month. I entered my 30’s in the worst version of myself. I was at my highest weight over 350 lbs, I was unhappy in life and I was very unhealthy. The majority of the decade was met with devastation, stresses, medical issues, mental issues, physical issues, financial issues, and almost anything else you can think of, LOL. But throughout the years, I started making decisions in one avenue at a time and since then, life has been amazing in different aspects. As I entered this year, I decided that I wanted to end the decade in the best way possible and my best possible self. I wanted to leave 30's in a far better place than how I entered it and I wanted to start the new decade in a much better mindset, a much better version of myself that can still improve on and grow from. I’ve been pushing myself and focusing on being consistent. It’s not easy and some days are challenging but I have a specific goal in mind and focused my mentality on the finish line. The scale has not been the most kind and I have been stalled almost all of this year, but because of the consistency and small changes, I have found my body adjusting and taking better shape, even though the scale isn't moving. It's a reminder to all of us that the scale is just a number and there are so many other variables to consider when measuring weight loss. My legs are getting more trim, my arms are getting toner and the reflection of a smaller waistline will far out weight what the number says when I step on it. I debated on posting this because insecurities are still there and people may judge how I look. Some might see my picture and see fat. Some may see skinny. Some may see flab. Some may see it as a goal. I can’t control how people will respond to that. But, at the end of the day, I’m proud of how far I have come in the last 10 years and I can check off one of the biggest NSV’s I’ve dreamt of to date! To put on a 2 piece bathing suit and have it fit?! GTFOH! To not cringe when you wear it in the mirror!? GTFOH! To be able to see a physical transformation in yourself that you never thought would have been possible 10 years ago is such an amazing feeling and reminder to all of you that 10 years is going to come and go regardless of what you do to better yourself. I want to see you guys being at the best version of yourself. Make those small changes today. Make those attainable goals. Make that vision board of all the things you want to accomplish. Make shit happen for yourself because time ain't going to wait for us. I blinked and am not turning 40 and I have no plans of slowing down anytime soon! .
I know with myself I am not fully there on where I want to be and maybe I'll never be perfect but then again perfection doesn’t exist. Who determines what is perfect? No one can, however, at the very least, striving for this metaphorical “perfection” will always result in a better you today than yesterday.
I can't believe I am saying this, but I am way less stressed about entering 40 as I was about entering 30. Bring it on!
Now it’s time to find more goals to work towards and crush!